I keep starting to post then deleting my 2 starting sentences. I just can’t figure out how to summarize all the amazing things God has been doing. I can’t even find the right word for things, because amazing is just not enough, English isn’t enough.
Let me paint a picture of two months ago. I had just given birth to a beautiful little girl. I came home my two story, dated but nice, home in a quiet neighborhood. My husband put me on bed rest and catered to my every need. Neighbors and friends from our Life Group brought us meals. I spent my days cuddling my newborn and watch movies with my 3 other children.
This morning I write this from my current home. I am over 30 and live with my mom. And we live in the hood. At one point we were phone less, car less, and homeless all at the same time. It wasn’t for lack of money. It was because we followed God.
Let’s clarify, I am not blaming God, I am giving him credit. I would have never imagined myself here. I probably would have fought the idea. Come on, who trades a happy life in the burbs for living with their parents in the hood? But, I know I am where God wants me. Even though the worlds eyes see it as a step in the wrong directions. I don’t want the world’s standards.
I am watching myself make decisions based on God’s lead. I am watching God change my wants to match his. I am seeing miraculous healing and communication between my husband and I and my mom and dad. Healing I have prayed for for seven years. I am watching my self, selfishness, step out of the way more than ever before. I am becoming a better daughter, wife, mother. I am watching that grow so fast I can actually see it happening!