There is this part of me that is always trying to figure out the end of the movie. While watching I will look for foreshadowing, actors micro expressions, and I take into account what society would accept as a “good” ending. My husband just watches the movie and let’s the story unfold. I have tried to stop the Nancy Drew in me. But, trying to figure it out is part of the fun.
A couple weeks ago I was so frustrated with God saying to stay at my mom’s house. I want my own home again and I didn’t think this “stay” part would last so long.
So, I found myself trying to figure out what God’s next step was. Much like I try to figure out what the end of a movie will be. As I brought life’s current options up trying to find out what hubby thinks. He corrected me he said, “If God says stay I stay.” He isn’t trying to figure out the end, the why God said stay he is just obeying. I find the beautiful to watch and excruciating to do.
If God said, “I need you to work 80 hour work weeks” I could do that (with the help of coffee). But, God told me to rest and be still. I am convinced this is part of the lesson. But, of course, that is me again trying to figure out what is next not focus on what is now.